new post for 2009

finally writing something for 2009..

it's only a few hours to the middle of the month of the middle of the year 15th of June ..

looking back, time seems to be that super fit runner that runs past u in IPPT and eventually laps you by at least 2 or 3 rounds on the 400 meters track before getting that Gold timing .. in other words... time really told me who's the boss in this race..

maybe my brain is not registering major events in my life anymore, more of the mundane -

work work work,

slack at lunch ,

work ,

try to slack at work,

knock off,

squeeze time to online, shower dinner,

talk to mom,

attempt to hang out by myself,

attempt to do that jogging routine that i've been procrastinating,

try to do that quiet time that i have always been putting off..

guess when u view working life as a chore and not something u look forward to,

u fill ur mind with more dread than u could actually realise.

and this dread and "sian-ness" can really block out whatever msgs or things or lessons that God wants you to learn or listen to Him..

on friends, with so many definitions out there..

my own conclusions is htat friends are always lurking and around,

it's only that i guess my peers all have their little phases in life that they need to work on and move on to..

we're all in different "micro-stages" i guess... some married and have kids.. some of them getting all busy and excited with their new borns ,

some with years of exp in work ( so a few more yrs and i'll ease into tt phase too i guess )

am i feeling lost? nope

am i feeling empty? not really..

just need to quiet down my heart, block out all the excess "noise" of the world and

be still in God.. to surrender and let go.. acknowledge that we're weak and feeble and we are in need of His Grace.. Let go of my own thoughts and desires..

Lean to Him and hear what He says.. sometimes it's hard.. its really hard? :x

surrender the outcome and entrust the cares of the world to God..

- Be still, and know that I am God